Feeling Defeated

I don’t expect anyone to read this, I just want to get on here to ramble. I studied for so long because I was so incredibly scared for the first midterm of a class I had previously failed. I was so disappointed in myself when it started, I had no idea how to do anything, it’s like all the information I knew just slipped away in a moment. I know I did absolutely horrible, and I don’t know how I can recover. If I fail this class again I don’t know what happens to me, I can’t continue on with my major anymore, as you can only retake a failed class once. I just feel so sad and have honestly been crying over this. I don’t know what to do now. There’s still the second midterm and the final but I feel so incredibly defeated. I don’t know if I’ll be able to recover, but it feels like I’m failing when everyone around me is doing so well. I just really hope and pray for miracles and that everything goes well, but I can’t help but feel like I won’t get through this. I know I sound so stupid, but I can’t help it, I feel like I’m letting myself down.

Edit: Woah I didn’t expect for so many people to see and comment on this post, but thank you all for your encouraging words and advice! It’s nice to know others have been through a similar experience and have been able to overcome it, so really thank you guys for making me feel less alone in this!