Three weeks sober…

And I’ve honestly got mixed feelings about it.. I know I should quit and need to quit and it would be the best thing for me to quit but at the end of the day I don’t WANT to quit.. I’m three weeks in and my gut is still fairly messed up.. I’m sleeping like 10 hours a night and still feeling tired… I’ve avoided burning a few hundred in bar tabs.. and when I clock out of work in a couple hours all I’m gonna want to do is stop by the bar next to my house and get about 6-8 shots in me asap.. both work and home are stressful and the bar is the only place I had to unwind especially when working nights.. I’ve been picking up some NA beer to scratch the itch.. I’m trying to do the whole “just don’t drink for tonight” one day at a time thing but I don’t really think I’m gonna be able to quit permanently.. at least for tonight I’m gonna just go home, reheat some Costco lasagna, crack open an Athletic and watch the new episode of Severance with my dog.. iwndwyt..