Need advice on divorce

Me and my wife are battling in court for her maintenance and child maintenance payment

I have not divorced her and she left the house on her own will a year ago

And she filled the case against me in family court

Mean while i lost my job in april and till now i have not being able to secure another job

Court decided that interm expense for wife is 25k per month and child 30k per month i cannot pay that much right now

Plus i feel stuck with that case as its my first time in courts and experiencing everything

Every time i feel like moving forward this case comes in my head and i get stuck I am person who keeps his stuff clean and simple and straight

I normally stay away from police courts and govt hospital i am kind of person who pray that Allah in jagho sy bacha kr rakhna

If i send divorce during the case what are the consequences of it as she had 10k permonth on her nikkah which was i paying over 20k permonth as long she lived and since she left i stopped paying it

Plus my lawyer took 40k and not once he came to court himself and only sends his assistances and gives no advice whats so ever