How do I receive a mental health evaluation/diagnosis?

Some Key Points For Criteria: - I’m 20 yrs old. - I reside in NYC - I don’t believe I qualify for Medicaid unfortunately because of my influx of inheritance from my deceased parents - following up I am not insured whatsoever, that ended with my parents passing a few years back. - I haven’t had a therapist since I was 12, I haven’t had medical care since I was 14 and have severe health issues (auto immune) which tanks on my mental health too as a side effect.

What is the most affordable way I could receive mental health care? Now that I’m independent and out of the grasp of my family which stopped me from receiving care. I want to get better, every day it dawns on me that it is harder and harder to conceal my feelings. I recently was kicked out, and have been in a massive fall of depression while recovering from homelessness in an Airbnb alone for 3 weeks. I’ve been conducting a lot of destructive behavior and all I can think about is harming myself or destroying what little love I have left. So in that case it is urgent I seek help, I was never educated on the process of therapy or psychiatry. I was in therapy since I could remember leading to when I was 12 years old. My therapist sucked because they were a friend of my family’s and it’s so hard to trust them because of the abuse I suffered the therapist would blame me instead of my father saying I set him off/triggered him etc. I never once felt safe with professionals which is another reason why I’ve put it off for so long. I just want to be diagnosed and given care I need. (When I was younger I was diagnosed with severe separation anxiety and depression) anytime it was brought up to my mother she’d tell my pediatrician I was crazy.

If anyone knows any resources even online please let me know! My apologies if that was a lot to read I feel as if it’s a burden that’s been weighing down on my chest heavily. I can’t keep having these severe episodes filled with anger, fear, and tears. I’m so close to imploding and feel utterly helpless and alone.