will it always feel this way

(f23) as long as i can remember it’s always felt like it’s me, and then everybody else. i don’t mean that im above anyone or better than anyone else, there’s just this disconnection that’s always been there. with every friend, every relationship, even with family members i’ve never felt truly understood by anyone. i know im loved and cared for but it’s always felt like everyone tunes me out. ive been seeing the saying “to be loved is to be known” thrown around a lot recently and i think that’s when it finally hit me. i don’t think anyone’s ever tried to know me.