Do you guys ever just feel like outsiders?

I like it here, I have my friends and we are very close. I can make good money and I'm happily married to a German. I speak the language.

Thing is: I feel like an outsider, always. I feel like I am not in the society, I'm always outside of it.

I don't know what's in the air but I feel like me chillin here is political. Everytime someone speaks about migration politics I kinda tense up because they are kinda talking if me hanging out here is okay or not. I feel sometimes like a number more than a person, a statistic of how many people enter the country. It feels like people will have an opinion of me no matter what, good or bad about my country. I've been told I'm one of the good ones before and that just gave me bad vibes.

All my closest friends are migrants that speak my language, I have other, not so close German friends, but no matter how much I try we just don't click the same way. I still like them though.

I was wondering if this outsider feeling will ever go away. I don't know if it's me or if things are kinda weird right now or if I'll ever fit in properly.

Have you guys gone a similar phase before things finally clicking into place?