So I started therapy...

I started seeing a psychiatrist to help me deal with my sexual orientation in a clinic which specializes in helping people accept this aspect of themselves.

I have fear that it won't work. For starters, I feel panic at the thought of actually having sex with someone, and I fear that this won't wear off with time. Conventional therapy and trying to change my thinking patterns has seldom worked for me in the past.

Additionally, she wants me to start journaling. She wants me to write about what it means to me to br gay, so that we could analyze the thoughts and try to work on them. I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to write. I know that I have a tendency to self-censor and she obviously doesn't want me to do that here, so I feel like I'm at a loss.

Any advice or reassurance?