Cruel and I’ll minded people around me

I am going through some unique behaviour issues with me, I am a man 43 years old, I just can’t focus and prepare my self for next skill update, always procrastinating, delaying feeling left alone and I feel like do I need to do everything when it comes to money, I have a wife and a kid who is 11 years old, my wife takes care of kids tuition at home and home chores, but to earn money pay bills every month I feel like I am getting destroyed and not living….n not happy, my wife doesn’t bother or feel or give a dam about me handling financial stress I take every month it’s 14 years in marriage I don’t see lov n affection, where I am I going wrong….why I feel sad…..all the time I am a software guy…