I'm on the fence of being an actual antivax

Can someone basically convince me otherwise? I'm looking for the argument of both sides. I don't want to be ignorant and dismissive of the evidence pointing towards vaccines as harmful, but I also don't want to be ignorant and dismissive of the evidence saying that those claims are false. There's so much hate spewing, I'm not looking for that. So in a nice way can people share information with me that will help me form my own opinion? I'm not anti vax but I'm not for vaccines at this point. I think there are too many cookies in the cookie jar when it comes to science and corporations and lobbying, so the further ties to any medical corporation that has any financial interest the better, otherwise I honestly just won't believe it. I wouldn't ask the my pillow guy if his pillow is good, and I'm not gonna ask Pfizer if there vaccines are safe. BUT, I'm not blind to the idea that vaccines could be totally safe; I'd rather look at it saying I'm not blind to the knowledge that lobbying and lying are real in the billionaire political world and I don't trust them because of it. And yes, I do believe vaccines save lives.