Anyone else ever feel guttered with your diagnosis?

I was diagnosed over 2 years ago now I think and it’s still such a bitter pill to swallow. I have a few other chronic conditions too. My pain is much better on biologics however I hate that this is how I’ll be forever. I hate that I have to wake every morning still and in pain. I hate that the NSAIDs I take for too long make my tummy hurt. I hate that every time I go somewhere I have to consider where I am, how long for and what meds I need to take with me. I hate that when I travel I have to consider the pain I will be in just to go somewhere. The burden of this disease is that I’ll never be the person I want to be and that’s the worse part.

I am sorry to be a Debbie downer, but anyone else feel the same way? I can’t believe we have to live like this forever. It sucks.