Can someone please encourage me through this breakup? I'm going through so much already and I'm so isolated, I really need someone to encourage me.

There's so much going on right now in my life. My parents are both dying, Im trying to figure out what to do about a toxic job, my health is extremely bad, like bedridden bad, I'm scared for my country and I'm completely isolated. I either pushed away or lost friends over the years due to distance (I was abroad) or my depression isolating me from them and eventually they moved on. Today was just such a hard day, I had a huge meeting this morning and of course my abuser had a huge fight with me last night and I was up all night, almost missed meeting, and we broke up again, this time I think it may be the last time. He's already threatened to replace me immediately and make sure I see it somehow even if he's blocked everywhere just to hurt me, he's surrounded by people who have no idea who he really is because he acts totally different in public. Nobody believes me about him, and I'm so alone. Can someone please just tell me I can be strong enough to get through all of this? I've done it before, this is literally my 7th toxic/abusive relationship, yes I know it's a pattern, yes I went to therapy and I know why I keep getting myself here, but getting away is hard with isolation and super struggles. Any encouragement would be great. Thank you