What is your coping mechanism?

I sometimes feel like I’m spiraling out. Feels like there’s a fire in my chest. Recently the bad days are lasting longer than the good days. Funny how human brain works. Suddenly throws you a memory that ruins your entire week.

I don’t drink. I bought low grade antidepressants - couldn’t take them. I don’t like the idea of not being 100% aware. But I want to let go.