why i decided to go stealth

i'm stealth at work and in most of my social life, but after another post i made on here i realized that the reason i went stealth is quite different from others and im glad it is. i chose to go stealth mainly because that's the only way i could see myself and my social life. i could not be bothered with explaining everything or having to experience certain treatment that would be different from cis women by certain people. i didn't go stealth because i'm afraid of the entire world and i think anyone who finds out will instantly hate me and see me as a mutilated man. i used to think that, and that only brought me anxiety and the constant fear and obsession with how i'm being perceived. i used to constantly think the worst of people and avoid opportunities, social interactions, dates, etc. because i thought the entire world hates me. life experiences and therapy taught me otherwise. im privileged to live in a relatively progressive area and im gen z, so it's different. but the more i went on dates or met people who i eventually told, the more i realized the world doesn't hate us that much. im still stealth and i always will be. i never want to be categorized as the trans person anywhere i go, and i don't think it's for me to tell everyone (esp not people im really close/intimate with). but i choose to do it out of a positive outlook on life rather than the constant belief that everyone hates me. it's a much better and more peaceful way to live life and be stealth.