My Experience

Hey all, I just had my first drug induced psychosis. I've been so low. I think I realise that my psychosis was my gear of death manifesting.

Time keeps passing and I can't slow it down. I can't achieve everything I set out to achieve.

My family are miles more successful then I am.

I'm medicated up the wazzzzoooo. I took medication I've been avoiding today for the first time. It's finally taken the edge off. The meds are the ones that won't induce psychosis I'm being responsible

But I figure rather take the edge off and keep living. Then sit with the suicidal ideation I have been experiencing

My parents are getting older I'm terrified of getting older I'm terrified of death.

Nothing means anything after psychosis except I think maybe that's the point. That's why it's so hard to deal with it shattered my reality so hard that I'm just as fucked up as anyone else.

Not sure of my point here but for those struggling I feel your pain. And my heart goes out to you.

Im playing final fantasy rebirth the game feels hollow. But I'm mildy sedated now and I can just enjoy its beauty for what it is.