(rant) I feel like all my progress is reversing

These past couple weeks for me have been insanely stressful. I’m planning a move between apartments and everyday has a thrown a new obstacle my way. My anxiety has been through the roof and i have nothing but beta blockers to cope with the racing heart. My normal heart rate is high 50s to mid 60s, but as of late it’s been a 10-15 beat increase. Bisoprolol has always done me good up until now. I’m back to barely eating, and when i do i feel sick. I’m anxious and have attacks all the time, and i can’t seem to get the anxiety back down. I’m scared bisoprolol has just stopped working for me even though i know it’s probably just my anxiety overpowering it. I’m scared i’ll never be normal again and that this is my new standard. I need to be normal again, and i need my anxiety to leave but it just won’t. I’m scared to see my S/O because i don’t want to worry her, because that’ll only make my anxiety worse. I feel like there’s no help for me..