Is There Any Point in Leaving Israel?

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Hello. I am an Israeli, born and raised. I'm Jewish by ethnicity but I am Christian by choice. I don't agree with zionism anymore, if I could somehow go back in time and reverse it I would.. I want to leave, I have Portuguese citizenship, my partner is from the US.. I hate what Israel is doing. I just don't really see a way of leaving without having to learn the American accent and lie about where I'm from whenever possible, and go by the foreign version of my name.. I don't want to have to say "BUT I AM NOT A ZIONIST" every time I tell someone where I'm from. I have one friend who moved to the UK and is hoping to revoke their own Israeli citizenship, and I don't think I can really do that.. I know of Jews with no connection to Israel who were refused care in hospitals because, as the nurses said "they are Yahudi sharmuta".. I don't see any way to live abroad without this thing following me around and making me less safe. I want to feel safe. A part of me wishes I could just move, have kids and never tell them that we are Jews just so no one will harm them for their ethnicity.. I don't know what to do. I feel hopeless. Everyone around me says they hope to see the children of Gaza die. To see VIDEOS of it. I just want to escape but it feel hopeless. This isn't the place for me.