Rejected, Ridiculed, and Struggling to Accept It

Recently I was in a couple of group chats. I feel guilty of my actions and I want to apologise to the girls out there in those GCs. I was calling there usernames out with too many heart emojis like a creepy guy. I should'nt have done it, well everything there won't be anything serious at all but nenu normally vella aa gc lo wanted to try my luck with girls (no bad intentions at all, It is for longterm/Marriage)akada emi workout avaledhu(sar sarle en eno ankuntamu) but going through felt comfortable there as they are very good people supportive and encouraging unatu undi okaroju similar ga oka girl ki message chesa hi with her username and few emoji's for which I got a humiliating reply unatu undi I felt mortified regret and it started to eat me within what have i done out of desperation ani. Oka side ee guilt on another side damn atleast oka joke laga kuda accepting ga lenu aa girls ki ane depressive thought is killing me from within.

First asalu akada vachi unda kudadhu nenu. I am sorry to every girl in those GCs if my actions were inapropriate.