Anyone else scared of reality and gets panic?

I first got DPDR then after it went away i developed fear of reality and existence... I find myself now even though my derealization went i still deal with insane questions about reality and i feel just so odd. Sometimes i feel that i unlocked something in my brain that we human should not be aware that reality itself is so odd. Like we are in a computer game and everything feels off and fake...

I get heavy panic attacks from these thoughts.. Thoughts?